i was going through someone's friendster the other night and in one of her pictures, a friend of hers was wearing a black shirt with a print "IT'S NOT A RACE". i don't know, but i felt that that statement on her shirt was for me.
weeks before the release of the results, i have been meeting lawyers, law students and watched law related movies (which was by coincidence). it got me wondering. i knew it was a sign. but as to what kind, i really wasn't sure. my sister was optimistic saying it probably means you're going to pass. i was hesitant to agree with her. i dare not to.
this lawyer i met was asking me about my plans. where i will work, where i want to concentrate on and was asking bout my 5-year plan! i was overwhelmed by it. i haven't really thought that far. i wanted to see the results first then we'll see. but i do have a plan b if i won't make it. weird but true. she was telling me about her law school experience. her bar experience. all the urban legends of those who have passed the exams and those who haven't. she was telling me that bar exam is not just a "me" factor. there are a lot that contribute to passing it. she said, "if you don't make it, don't think you're bobo. the fact that you finished law school tells you you are not. maybe it's just not for you yet. don't be discouraged. kuha ka ulit. because once you get your atty., hindi naman na nila tatanungin kung ilang takes mo ung bar eh. you are on the same ground with them once you have that license."
"It's not a race" statement sums up everything she said.
i really liked talking to her. she opened up my foresight and different avenues of the law profession. it was like law profession 101. i really don't know what to expect once i pass the bar. i just know i want to work in manila. other than that, it's all blank.
she was telling me i look too young to be a lawyer. that i look like a freshman college student. i asked, is that a disadvantage? she laughed and said it could be. i probably let out a worried face because she immediately added "kasi you'll be associating with lawyers, and if they see you as too young, esp the male ones, baka they won't take you too seriously. thus, you have to prove yourself to them pa." i couldn't respond to what she said, i just stared at her, worry meter rising. hahahaha i did feel like a kid that instant. then i managed to say "bawi na lang ako sa porma". she laughed and agreed saying "yeah, present yourself nicely and professionally. and dapat may air of confidence ka when conversing with them. don't show them you are intimidated." wow i have never realized i have these things to consider. back then, i thought once you i get that atty. everything will just fall into place.
thinking bout it now, i realize i am still very raw. maybe i am not yet ready to be in the 'real world'. that is why God has delayed me.
About Me
- Ann
- I am a restless individual. I can't be in something for too long. At some point, I'll be bored. A feeling I'm not comfortable hanging around with. I've always wanted to be a writer. But I can't write as often as I want. And sometimes, words are not that good to me when I need them to be. So now, I tell my story through my photographs. I have a secret love affair with photography. There are things that are just best seen than told. I am independent. I don't appreciate people influencing or telling me what to do/say. I can decide and speak for myself, thank you. I am a traveler. I am constantly somewhere else, either in reality or in fantasy.
