sometimes, a person who causes you so much pain is also the same person who causes you so much happiness....

--0o0--

you were someone who can never be mine.
at least for now, i'd always think.
somehow your actions give me hope.
that doors of opportunity will open for us someday.

maybe i dreamed of 'us' too much.
i'm beginning to forget the reality around me.
that until i proved my suspicions right,
then everything else will fall into place.

my heart cringe everytime i think you are with her.
to the person that you rightfully belong.
i wish you your happiness with her, i swear.
it's just that the pain is too much for me to bear.

to the heavens i cry to make you mine.
yet all i see is the bright blue sky.
each night that passes by,
you and i are still friends, only just friends.

i know in your heart i am special to you.
only i don't know upto what extent.
there may never be a chance for me to confirm
and you may never know i've given my world to you.

--o0o--

of all the men that exist,
why does it have to be you?
the man i'm beginning to fall in love with,
the same man who gives me much uncertainty.

for a time i thought it was me who you love.
only to find out it was somebody else.
yet she was not just any girl,
but a friend, a good friend of mine.

i tried to repress what i hope and feel,
i gave way for you both
that's how much i love you, you see
for your happiness, i'll give u support.

but why does it have to be her?
i could have taken it easier if it were just another girl.
to know what you have been doing is just too much,
it could have been me in her shoes.

but if it is in my friend you'll find what you're looking for,
then i have nothing more to object.
because for everytime your face lifts up with i smile,
i too smile, but with tears streaming down my eyes.